Random Musings at Dawn

3:29 AM

(photo from my Ilocos trip which I have yet to blog about)

It's almost 4am and I can't seem to sleep... So I thought of visiting my blog and write, this is what a blog's for after all, isn't it? Anyway, I feel bothered, I don't know what's going on with me, I have requirements left and right but I don't have the same drive to do them like how I was the previous semester. My friend told me it's probably the LSS (Last Semester Syndrome) kicking in, perhaps it is, but I don't know... it feels different. I don't participate in class, study for tests (I'm still able to pass them somehow, don't worry mom!!!), and I don't exert the effort that I should, which is absolutely foolish thinking it's my last academic semester and I just couldn't find the most perfect time to be this way. I'm not usually this lazy person, I swear! I keep thinking maybe I just don't like what I'm doing or that I lack the passion to continue to do what I'm doing (i mean duh, who is passionate for school, anyway?). How does one become passionate for school again??? or maybe the right question is how was I passionate for school during the previous semesters??? I think I have quite a few reasons in mind, one is that I had a subject that I was so interested in, it's a plus that it came with it a very intimidating, but super awesome professor who made me want to go to class every meeting (perfect attendance, bish!!! my ONLY class with perfect attendance. EVER.). I was so into it that it came to a point where I'd do the requirements after class even when it was due the next week. To think I'm a crammer! And now I'm back to my question, what on earth happened to that passion?! Can't it work for all my subjects?

Seriously, I've probably watched all the recent rom-coms (I hate the oldish looking ones) and done all the possible procrastination schemes I could think of (except cleaning my room haha so maybe not all schemes, but that can wait *wink*) just so I could avoid all the requirements I have to comply with. I have to get through this phase before midterms or else I'm doomed. No really, I have all the major subjects this sem and boy do these subjects know how to be such pains in the bass! I can't screw any of these, so note to self: PAGTARONG NA, MICHELLE, PLEASE. 

whatever happened to my LastPush motto? I thought I'd go through this sem with that in mind, it's funny how things always happen the way you didn't expect it to be. LastPush saimong nawong!

I guess I should probably try to get some sleep as I'm not making sense anymore. Goodnight, folks. I feel sorry that you read all the way to this punctuation mark. and after that, and after that even when it's utter nonsense. Oh and I am not reading what I wrote again so if there are errors, pardon the bored af person who's trying to write even when she knows it's not her best talent. Seriously now, good night, and thank you John Mayer for getting me through the night.


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